Journey To Vaudeville

You sound so innocent
All full of good intent
You swear you know best

But you expect me to
Jump up on board with you
Ride off into your delusional sunset

I'm not the one who's lost
With no direction oh
But you won't ever see

You're so busy makin' maps
With my name on them in all caps
You got the talkin' down just not the listening

Have you ever heard the words of a certain song and just thought the singer hand seen your life or situation and decide for your sanity they would write that song for you. Then you secretly hope that this certain person hears the song and realize that it was about them. Some of the songs like the one I quoted above have been there for me in my difficult time recently, cause see I just recently got married “oh yeah readers it happen” (and no I’m not pregnant :P I know 20 is young but hey I love the guy).

That was the reason why I had been saying new blog post up today and something would come up with my husband and I would have to take care of that first and would either forget to do the blog or be too tired. That’s what this post is kind of about this recent very quick marriage hasn’t been a walk in the park. There has been some times when I really wanted to give up and walk away.

Why am I telling you this and putting it out there because I’m not ashamed to say I’m struggling I’m having a hard time and a lot of the time what got me through it was music. The words in a certain song that said how I was feeling like I was singing them to the world and the people who loved that song understood exactly what I meant. So many song got me by, ones that made me angry and wanted to stand up for myself then others that made me cry and wonder why I couldn’t keep the man I’m so deeply in love with happy.

You know what folks it happens, its how life works we think going into something will be easy and find out that it takes a lot more then what we originally thought. Yes listening to Sara Bareilles King of Anything gave me that empowered feeling and made me want to take things or rather life into my own hands and walk away. Oh yeah I can’t even begin to count how many times I was on the phone with my Grandmother in Law, Sister in law and my best friends crying saying I was ready to give up and just leave but there is something that my Grandma In Law told me and I know that some of my reader might not believe in God and that’s ok but she told that God had a plan for my husband and I should try and wait it out and listen.

Honestly at the time I had my doubts I still do but at the end of every conversation and after crying to my mom for a while I went and listened to my music. I listened and I believe that maybe that’s how God communicated to me through music because in the end of it all I felt better the music told my story and it felt good.

So basically what my point is music will always and forever be the peace maker of troubles, or so I think.

Music is a world within itself, With a language we all understand – Stevie Wonder, Sir Duke

Till next time stay fearless and make your words have no bonds
Laters guys :D




My hubby and me